Friday, December 14, 2007!
HandWritten on; 12:05 AM
these days im feeling so irritated and so easily tired, i dontknow why, everything just seems to get onto my nerves more easily and I HATE pretending to be happy or sth just to save some stuff. and i hate being the one who's always trying. i know it may be because i did not try in the past, but i just hate the feeling of getting nothing back in return or people just fuyan-ing you. AIYA. i think coming online made me more angsty.... like if i just watch tv then go to sleep or sth i'll be quite happy but when i come online then when i talk to people and then by some WEIRD reason there will be this super IRRITATING feeling coming over me esp when people ignore me its so irritating and i will start getting pissed at everything, at myself, and i will scream at whoever's trying to talk to me, like my sister or brother, or if it's my mom then i will get scolded. i think i NEED PEOPLE TO TALK TO then i become more normal and more in touch with reality or something then i become happier AIYA i dontknow also i think i suck, okay stop emo-ing, reminds me of my sec2/3 times which were like wth times. this is such a stupid random post. SUCKS.
okay shall save this post from being so stupid. erm went sakae sushi buffet on tuesday with wanteng bunny zouzhao. :D haven talked/seen them for so long. we just sat at sakae at heeren from 3-6 talking about random stuff, about the past, about the present and the future. but the future not very far future, more like NEXT YEAR future. which always gives me the super dreaded/dreading/dread feeling. we watched Hitman after that HAHA its better than i expected though i only understood like half the movie even near the ending. the woman inside damn liberal okay. okay. wednesday went minds with huitian casey ezra zhuhao erm we stayed for two hours only, hahah would like to spend more time there i think that place makes time slow down a little, like everyone sit down and yay, play board games hahaha and its quite cosy and everything, and when you're playing, the rest of the world just seemed a little further away :) went school after that cause casey insisted on going back hahah some of the bboys were there so they were breaking and after that everyone just sat down and talked. yeah. talked. hahah. i said our conversations had no conclusion but they said what we're talking about aint supposed to have any conclusion hahahah so yeah. the evening ended with me dinnering with huitian at kap(:
today! pw group gathering with delphine missing meaning erm, yeah hahah so yuanguang junyu and i had suki sushi, it was like my second time having sushi buffet in two days-.- surprisingly to all of us i couldnt eat much and junyu keep double-ordering hahaha even the guys surrendered in the end. and trust me, i think i never heard them said they were FULL ever before today hahahaha. watched Warlords. :D couldnt really understand at the start but it was reallly goood :D :D there was this display of brotherhood in there and yes, i am not a guy but i kinda can understand. so go watch it haha. walked to paradiz cause they wanted to pool, i wanted to go inside centrepoint, ended up with us buying this $11.90 HAAGEN DAAZ icecream omg damn sinful but of course, with them around i didnt eat much hahah. then to paradiz but didnt end up pooling cause there were many people on the waiting list already, and i was glad cause i dont really POOL hahaha. then erm to this arcade beneath dhoby ghaut mrt station COOL I DIDNT KNOW THERE WAS A PLACE LIKE THAT THERE HAHA its like the first arcade i've seen that is so brightly lit. :D okay then to lot one for contact lens solution then home, hahah kinda summed up the day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSAMIN i'm going out with you tmr. :D
this is still a stupid random post, but i think at least it sounds happier so yeah. too wordy as usual, actually its just for my own reference and reflections and whatever. :)
